Let it go

I’m in a warehouse of some sort, dark and cold. My heart is pounding, and I am becoming increasingly angry as I look around at all this stuff strewn about all over the ground. This is my property. My personal effects, some of them real treasures, tossed carelessly in every direction. Furiously I sift through, looking for beloved souvenirs from my travels… for my running shoes with the special insoles… for the handmade jewelry box my friend gave me… none of it is here. Everything I pick up becomes a colorless rag, useless in every way. Moments ago this was all of my belongings, now it’s just scraps of fabric.

My eyes fly open. It’s the middle of the night and I’ve been dreaming. My subconscious has once again been replaying its version of events that transpired when my shipment from Seattle to Puerto Vallarta was mishandled by UPS. Most of my things were stolen. I received $100 in compensation for the unfortunate incident. It’s been more than 5 years, and I am still exactly as pissed off as I was the morning I received the shipment alert. I cannot seem to let it go. I know I need to, but I can’t find a way. I just don’t know how yet.

But while I am not able to let this go yet, I AM able to see how much it bothers me. How I carry it around, and revisit it from time to time. Just to rile myself up, I guess. I mean, what is the reason we carry this extra weight through all our days, and choose to commune with these upsetting memories time after time? I don’t know, but I’m an expert at it. 

Only with some things, though. And maybe that’s the other tiny blessing. I truly can let a lot of things go. And because I can feel the weight of the things I have NOT dropped, I can also feel a true sense of liberation when indeed I have let something go for good. When I don’t have to think about that thing anymore. It’s really done.

We’ve got to learn how to let things go because when we don’t, it just bogs us down. It serves no purpose other than to bum us out. 

You can’t do anything about the past, and you can’t do anything about the future either. You only have right now and the more time you spend back there, the more time you’re not right here. 

Here is where you can do something. 

This is the place you have leverage. Now. And now, and now.

If it’s not happening now, let it go.

Easier said than done, but I’ll keep trying.